A Few Words From The Writer
{ entry ~ August 24th }
Dear Lord~
I really need Your help. You’ve obviously been prompting me to this place over the past few days, and I firmly believe that You’ve brought me here to write this book. Why me? I dunno. I mean, I really have no idea, God. I’ve never written anything like this before, and I’m pretty sure most people consider me a complete ass. Guess that really doesn’t matter though.
Thing is, I’ve only got a vague idea of what I’m to write, and even as I write these words, I find myself struggling to settle down. Now I’m not sure whether it’s some sort of spiritual attack I’m encountering, or simply my own restless nature, but I’m having a seriously hard time getting started here. I’m binge watching these lame re-runs, and playing with the pup. . . considering whether I wanna clip this coupon out for some chunky soup. And I don’t like soup. Geeez! I’m so restless! Can I still blame that energy drink from yesterday?!? You know I’m praying about things regardless, Lord.
So please give me the discipline I need here. . . and the guidance as well.
In Jesus’ Name ~
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Dear reader~
You know those scenarios where you only have one really important thing to do, yet you find yourself indulging every possible distraction to avoid said priority? Yeah, wellll~
Here I am, in some remote cabin in the hills, (and by no natural desire of my own, I might add). Anyone that knows me, knows that I’m one of those rare breeds that really doesn’t enjoy the mountains. Though in this particular instance, I’ve been willing to ‘go with the flow’. Or rather, (should I say?), ‘with God’s leading’. Not sure whether the exact details are relevant to you, but among the events that have corralled me here, were a sudden loss of job AND home, as well as a falling out with one of my best friends. . . and all of this within just a few days. What’s more, none of these events were expected, or even seemingly related to one another. It’s true. Everything was going so well, it almost doesn’t make sense. I mean, unless you’re a Christian “in the know”. God definitely has a way of arranging things, whenever He sees fit.
I’m always needing to be reminded of such, as I really do want to serve God with all my heart. (If that sounds like a typical churchy thing to say, apologies.) To be honest, I find myself torn at times. Even as a devoted Christian, I often want to do certain things that I feel would be beneficial, but not necessarily the specific things that God wants from me. For instance, you inquire? Okay, I’ll trust you.
It really wasn’t my plan to cut the job short in order to write some book. In fact, I was actually pretty dang contented in my last gig, just waiting tables at this casual hangout down at the beach. Overall, it was a pretty stress~free environment. My co-workers were cool, most of the customers liked me, and I was making some really good bank. Well~ really good money for slingin’ milkshakes and curly fries. Plus, I was tentatively planning on taking a collection next payday for this sweet girl in real need of some medical treatment. Seems like a worthy endeavor, doesn’t it?!? That’s what I was thinking, and yet, it wasn’t meant to be. No ~
It seems that it’s time for me to write this book, although I’m still not exactly sure of everything I’m supposed to include yet.
I do know that it has something to do with having a real love and appreciation for all that God truly Is, and for all that He does, and also the style in which He does things. And that having such a love and reverence can result in an ability to serve Him more passionately. . . even when we may be unhappy with His decisions at times. (Of course, a lot of this just comes down to having a genuine faith in Him, yes?)
I also believe that God has designed us to be fully dependent on Him, and that the wisest move we can ever make is to recognize what a–`holes we can be, and to truly trust His lead in all things.
Tell me, am I stating the obvious here? Alright then. Just bringing a few free~ floating thoughts to ink and paper.
No doubt, there will be lots more to this, as there are certainly many aspects of God rarely considered. Possibly because we take God for granted at times, or assume that we know His ways?
A lot of prayer and meditation is therefore called for, as well as internalizing His Word. Now I’m starting to get that feeling that these writings will get a bit deeper and probably more challenging as we move forward. (So although these pages may or may not be a fit for brand new Christians, I’m thinking they should benefit anyone of the Christianity 201+ crowd wanting to strengthen their faith.)
‘Course, all that I’m considering as a ‘definite’ at the moment is the title. . . Embracing A Sovereign God. And God might even have me change that before we’re done. You know, I haven’t even put together a table of contents yet, and now I’m wondering if these words even qualify as a ‘forward’ or what. Perhaps we’ll just dub this a note from me to you. Would that be alright?
As if you couldn’t tell, this is all very new to me. Aaand I have one last confession to make. Truth be told, I haven’t read much of the Christian literature out there. So in the back of my head, I’m slightly concerned that amidst some good, thought- provoking stuff, I may inadvertently cover a few things that have been said before. (Yeah~ I probably will:) Anyway, if such proves to be the case, forgive me, as I’m simply praying as I go here, and relaying whatever comes to heart and mind. I’m just hoping that my writing style isn’t utter crap, and that the words may provide some decent food for thought.
So~ if the following pages do convey anything insightful, profound, or inspiring, then you can rest assured of God’s involvement. . . and that, dear reader, is key in every endeavor. Amen?
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